thoughts from a father in utah

wow, everybody. so here we are. how to talk about our angel...

as dr jones confirmed the powerful news last thursday, he turned to sofie and said, "this is life changing." i kept hearing the word "life," "life," "life," as we absorbed the news. her dear mother, her wonderful mother wanting so to comfort. our dearest sofie processing the news with complete equanimity--rightly emotional, open, and still somehow more powerful than the news. that is our sofie. completely unselfconscious, completely in the moment, completely alive, completely herself. that is her strength.

i adore you, sofie. i've said for years you and joe came to save me, but this is way beyond the call of duty. statistically you are now quantified as one in three hundred thousand, but we all know you are one in a million.

i think of my favorite pictures of you as a little one: in the first you are lying on a carpeted floor, eyes closed in mock sleep, and in the next eyes wide open and full of perfect mischief. thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, forever. and forgive me for embarrassing you.